I see ugly guys dating gorgeous, "hot" women all the time. I, too, am not very attractive but I'm not doing well with the ladies. What's their secret?

I've unfortunately had the unpleasurable experience of being chased by a really gross big type guy that was some guy that was nasty guy from his office. But now, I just reject. And I've allowed myself to do so without feeling guilty because I don't want to be pressured into dating somebody that I don't want to date or somebody that's going to corrupt me or try to corrupt me or somebody that's going to be gross around me and stuff like that.

A long long time ago, there was a time and this was when I was still drinking, but a long long time ago there was a time when I actually remember equating big or fat guys with more success or more money. Not that I was chasing them for their money but just they come across as people that were either like directors of their companies or CEOs or people that just came from wealthy families where their families spoiled them or something. But I actually remember feeling that way a long time ago, about fat or big big guys. Because obviously you can't get that big and have enough time and energy to get that big unless you have the time and energy and money to do so.

That's because ugly guys a lot of them are overconfident. All of that food and laziness? They built up energy inside of them to expel it on some unsuspecting woman like myself. And actually a long time ago, fat guys for example, they were seen as royalty or people with a lot of money because obviously you can't get that fat unless you have the food to get that way and you can't get the food unless you have the money.

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I want to be able to date a really gorgeous guy without feeling suppressed or restrained from being myself. I really want to feel that and I really want my next boyfriend hopefully really gorgeous, to accept me with all of everything that I have. You know what I mean like all of my flaws or all of my corks or whatever. I have been able to feel really comfortable around a really gorgeous guy? But I still feel a little bit trained because I'm scared because I feel like the guy is going to reject me for someone else because he happens to be so gorgeous. And so he obviously has choices if he's handsome. But I want to be able to like be myself around a really gorgeous guy because I know that's a challenge for me and it is a challenge for me because sometimes I do get scared of gorgeous guys. Only because I feel like I'm going to like them and then they're going to see something about me that they don't like and then you know what I mean? So my challenge is is to be able to just be myself around them and I just really wish that they would just still love me anyway. That may or may not be asking too much. I don't know but I just don't want to feel like repressed or whatever it's called around a gorgeous boyfriend. I don't want to feel like I can't be myself. But that's not going to be a reason why I'm going to go out with an ugly guy but I want to be able to like talk to a gorgeous guy the same way that I talk to an ugly guy. Because the ugly guys, a lot of girls like me, we tend to be more open and you know talkative and ourselves. And I wish I could talk to the gorgeous guy that in the same way that I do with some ugly guys. But then again, the fact that some gorgeous guys do not react the same way that ugly guys do when I am being myself. That's better than two is because they seem to react differently. And some of them don't like it when a girl is being too over the top? And they would rather have a very mellow type.